|Get the moonlight out of your hair.
||[Sep. 17th, 2007|09:17 pm]
Alright, I have a question for you ladies. What does it mean when a girl looks at you, and then looks away when you catch her? And if this is recurring? Just curious. 'Cause my mind is going on all sorts of tangents about it... and quite frankly, they range from incredibly optimistic to just downright depressing lol. Like, is it flirting? Or is it just straight-up no-meaning oh-I-was-just-looking-at-you staring? My mind is switching between an egotistical "Ooh, Billy..." to a rather pessimistic "Ew, Billy..."|
I'm actually leaning towards the pessimistic one, just because this girl is way beyond my stature. Like, she's the one everyone swoons over, you know? And I'm sure that every other guy she knows feels the same. Yeah... that's probably it.
Anywho, I know one girl who has a crush on me, another who may have a crush on me, and the people who I've always known to have a crush on me. And I STILL DON'T COMPREHEND IT. I'm not trying to toot my own horn, believe me. Hell, if you've known me longer than six months then you know what an incredibly low self-esteem I have. I guess it's just St. Mary's College... hell, the choices are either stuck-up rich-ass white-boy athletes who fucked their way to get into college...
So either rich, white boys with abs.
Let me reiterate this once more.
Bill Gates' money with Fabio's body.
Do you not see my dilemma? lol
To give myself credit (and not seem like a whiner), I guess I do sort of stand out. For one, I think for myself. I try to be deeper and more intellectual than the normal SMC student. I enjoy debate over mindless conformity to idiotic ideas. I try to be mature, although I'm still a little kinky (wink wink).
(Sigh) I don't know. It feels like I've been thrust back into high school, with all this guessing and shit. I'm just going to go to Safeway (VONS motherfuckers! Call it VONS) and buy some staples.
Take your brown eyes, your pretty smile, your silhouette!
Another time, another place, another rhyme, a warm embrace!
Another dance, another way, another chance, another day!
( A poem.Collapse )